The Day I Was Born

The day I was born, I was given a name

The day I learnt to speak, I was told to speak in limits

The day I started walking, I was told not to go out of home

The day I started learning, I was sent to school

The day I made friends, I was told not to meet them

The day I learnt about my hobbies, I was told to do a job

The day I liked someone, I was told to be a loyal son

The day I got married, I was told it’s a celebration

The day I had kids, I was told to become responsible now

The day my kids grew up, I was told not to interfere in their lives

The day I retired, I was told to do something productive

The day I was old & sick, I was told to be careful

The day I died, I was told “I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT TO IF I COME BACK”

AND I WAS BORN AGAIN...

Fear

What is a man’s greatest fear? Is it the fear of death or fear of God or fear of Ghost or fear of loss of something or someone invaluable or it is something else? Well whatever it is, it is there in everyone. Every human has a fear inside him or her. There is no soul which is spared from this feeling of fear.

One thing that is common to all the fears is: uncertainty. We are scared of God why? Because we have never seen him and same goes with the Ghosts. We are scared of future why? Because we have never seen it. We are scared of losing something or someone why? Because we do not know what is going to happen with that thing or person. We are scared of all the things that we have not seen or we do not know about. And we will always continue to be scared about them. We cannot avoid this feeling. We can defer it for sometime but we certainly cannot avoid it.

What will happen to mankind if all these fears are removed from within us? Think about a child who is not afraid of his parents and continues to do something that is not expected out of him or her. Think about a mother who is not afraid to disown her child for any reason. Think about a soldier who is not afraid of enemy capturing his territory. Think about a teacher who is not afraid of spoiling the future of his or her pupils. Just think about all the fears that lie in every nook and corner around you. They are plenty but are necessary too.

We are taught and told from childhood that we should be fearless, why? What if all the above fears are taken out of a person? Will he be fit to live in this society? If I look back at my life then I can clearly see that it was not fearlessness that kept me intact of my morals and values but it was fearfulness. Why cannot we openly and happily accept that these fears play a very vital role in our lives? We say that necessity is the mother of invention, why? Because we reach a point where we are afraid of something and we want to get over it. It was the fear of being a slave forever that motivated Mohandas Gandhi to fight for the independence of India. Same was the case with Adolf Hitler. Even pandavas were afraid that if they do not rebel then they would be left with nothing so the Mahabharata took place. And these examples are quoted for the fearlessness of protagonists.

It has always been the privilege of few people who have decided what is wrong and what is right for us and we have been following it blindly for centuries. We are told that the feeling of fear is bad, is negative and we without even questioning it, believe it. We all are gifted with the power of thoughts but seldom do we use it. We are so busy in being fearless that we have forgotten that fear is for good of ours. We should not run away from our fears rather should embrace them and know them because it is our fear that makes us MORTAL.

Dreams

“Four or Five people sitting on a round table, me being one of them. Probably discussing some issue and trying to come to a conclusion. After spending a substantial amount of time no conclusion can be arrived at. I stand up and start leaving the room but one of them said something that made me stop and I turned back to go back to the table again. The man sitting at my left on the table took his hands below the table and came up with a revolver and put it on the table showing his honesty to surrender the arm. I somehow missed the sight of this man for just a moment and a thunder was heard. I was shot; a head shot and was dead. I did not feel anything and just died right away.”

I was shock awake and took few seconds to realize that I am still alive and not dead. It was just a dream or say night mare I saw. For the rest of the day I had heaviness in my head. I don't know why but I had a strange feeling. It was just a virtual world where I was shot and it should not have impact my real world because these two are no way connected to each other (at least no tangible connection exists between them). The whole day I was thinking why I felt strange, why I had heavy head. I do not have a clear answer to these questions of mine.

May be there is a connection between these two worlds, in our real world we act and behave according to what goes in our mind but in the virtual world we act and behave according to what goes much deeper inside us that is in our heart or say sub conscious mind. They say it from ancient times – “Those who dream big achieve big”. It shows that there is some relation between these two worlds of ours. But there is another dimension to it. There are two kinds of dreams, one which we see with our conscious mind like I see myself to be in place of Sachin Tendulkar and hitting sixes or I see myself to be the president of the country, the other kind of dreams are which we see unconsciously like the one I narrated in the start of the article. There is a difference in both of them, though both are dreams and so no logic can be applied to them but one reflects the fantasies of our conscious mind and the other of our subconscious mind.

In our virtual world we see the things that are buried deep inside us and we try to run away from them in our real world or are afraid of it. So it means that to be happy and lead a cheerful life we need to be happy from within and not just from the surface. Else our fears deep within will catch hold of us in some or the other way and will keep haunting us. We have to feel this within us that we are capable of doing a certain thing or we are strong enough to face any situation that blocks our way. From within I mean our thoughts and desires have to be perfectly streamlined, we in no way can get away with them.

I hope to write another version as it seems incomplete right now. I would just like to take a pause here by quoting what is said in Upanishads -

“You are what your deepest desire is;
As you desire, so is your intention;
As your intention, so is your will;
As is your will, so is your deed;
As is your deed, so is your destiny”

Random Thoughts

This entry is one which has resulted from a negative flow of thoughts; I think it is important to keep a balance of both the negative and the positive thoughts. It gives you an opportunity to look at the other side of the things. So here it is -

“When you are at your weakest phase of life you are alone. You have to live it by your own self. You have friends, parents before that and after that too but somehow something happens and at the moment where you need support you are alone. It’s not that they do not want to help you but everything turns out to be in a manner that you are all alone. No matter how much you try to make others understand your situation you would never be able to get across them and when the tough time is gone they understand you by just looking at you as if they have divine power of reading your mind.

I do not understand the irony of this life; we come alone and go alone then why don't we live alone, why can’t we face everything that comes in our way by our own. Everyone runs their own race then what for we need others, they are your competitors and not companions in the race. We come here we love people, we make friends but then what either we leave them or they leave us. If it has to happen one day or the other then why to make friends in the first place. Why do we waste our time and energy in all this? We should be ready to live alone from the very starting; I wonder how much resource we can preserve if we learn to live like this.

Well if I see the other side then it is practically not possible for humans to live alone and if you have people with you then you feel safe and have support. But where does it all go when you need it the most? In life you will face hardships when you do not have enough muscle to face it. Your car breaks down either on a deserted road or in the middle of a national park (happened with my friends), you have to pay the pending bills when you are almost broke, you have to attend a wedding when you have a very urgent meeting scheduled. And on the top of all this when all this is happening to you, you are all alone and nobody is there to buy your point of view.”

It’s not complete yet but I don't want to go further, maybe next time I would come back with the answers to my questions. And it does not have a heading because I did not find anything that can sum it all up in a phrase.